Monday, April 30, 2012
The rain has driven Knut home more than we had expected. Of course, I want him to be able to plant, and I don't like delays either. However, it's sure nice to have him home to help out too. I won't complain.
My Serina Cardigan was self published on the Ravelry.com site. It took off faster than any of my other patterns have. I had goals for how well I wanted it to do in the first month. Triple that number, and you have what I got in the first day of it's release. I was completely blown away by it's popularity, and mentally I was not prepared for it.
You see, I've been reading a bit of garment shaping techniques by an amazing knitwear designer who goes by Ysolda. She's amazing. Everything she does is amazing, and everything she makes is amazing. When studying the techniques of a designer way more qualified than me, I was starting to feel like I was a fraud. She's a real designer. I have no idea what I'm doing next to her.
I was praying about it, and God laid on my heart that he gives me the skills to do what I need to do, when I need to do them. So I can't design as well as her. I bet she couldn't make a grocery trip run with 4 kids in tow. (That's in my mind my crowning achievement of each week.) I'm getting better, and I'm learning as much as I can about the craft I love. Just because I haven't arrived doesn't mean I won't.
It was after that when the Serina Cardigan was released and all the lovely chaos of my inbox filling up and people buying the pattern happened. As silly as it sounds, I feel like God gave me that success...just because. Just because He loves me. Just because He felt I needed a big success. Just because He's a daddy that loves to give good things to His children.
I feel like I need to add a disclaimer to every design, or every blog post, or anything else I do that may interest people. Saying something like: "I'm just a mom. My house is messy, and I lose my temper. If you look hard enough (or casually browse) you'll probably find mistakes. I'm just a mom surrounded by little kids all day and loving on them as much as I can, so these other worldly successes may have to take a back burner, and I can't be as successful and polished as those who have the ability to devote their life to their job."
This last week, God reminded me that my primary label is "Daughter of the King." I worry that the more I attempt to accomplish things, the more mistakes I've made will be found. God continually encourages me on saying that whatever He asks me to do, whether changing diapers or knitting up a hat, is for the purpose of people seeing Him when they look hard enough or casually browse my work.
I feel so humbled at the idea that God would take an interest in me, and in the things that fill my day. Can there be any greater blessing?
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